The poem is dedicated to well, never mind. It will be part of a new series called 2010, since all the other series of poems are a bit outdated already. Feel free to peek into my whole portfolio of free poems

Dreamer

Sometimes things ain’t right,
Even if they look fine,
maybe I should fight,
or just dream that you’d be mine.

I may seem so very strong,
but within I’m very weak,
here all alone…
Lonely silenced, I can’t speak.

Every word I utter
Everything I say
Makes me feel very eager
to have here one day.

Is it just a far fetched dream?
A nightmare? A sweet one?
I don’t know…
For all, I’m just a dreamer,
who slowly comes to love you so.

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I just found this piece that she eventually dedicated to me back then around 2006-2007, which I really hope you’d come to enjoy.

“Huli Na”
Gawa ni: Izy Bautista

Bakit ngayo’y ako’y aalis?
Ngayon ikaw ay aking mahal na mahal…
Sadyang kay sama ng tadhana’t
Pagiibigan nati’y di nagtatagal…

Wala lang naman eh
Ikaw lang naman ang iniisip
Siguro tanging hanggang panaginip
Tayo’y magmamahalan
At duoy di mangiwan…

Huli na para ibalik
Ang init ng bawat halik
Nung tayo’y magkasama sa kwarto
At nakikinig sa mga awitin ng radio…

Kaybilis lumisan
Kaybilis sabihin
Na di mangiiwan
Ngunit tadhana lamang
Ang nakakaalam…

Subalit, duoy sa malayo
Parang maging ikaw parin
Ang tanging isip
Ang tibok ng puso…

Ba’t ayaw mangako na ako’y babalik?
Ba’t susuko sa unang halik?
Tanging ang panginoon lamang
Ang syang nakaalam…

Sana’y tigilan na ang pagiiyak
Sa isa huli kong yakap…
Magpapaalam na ako sayo…

Sana’y tayo’y magkita pa,
Sa ngayo’y, ito’y HULI NA…

I probably start confusing some of you about what I’m talking, let me guide you through. My mother resides somewhere in a province in Visayas, nearest to which is Cebu City. I’m here in downtown Davao living with her sister who has been acting up as my mother for the past fifteen or so years, alongside with her my present father who both are doing a pretty well job to make me feel how it is to belong to a family and have people care about you. But who would not agree that even the sight of your true mom can make a vast difference in emotional aspects than whatever tender touches someone else could do unto you?

Just a couple of moments ago, my younger sister who lives with my mother in Cebu sent me a message. A little poke to remind me that they are still alive and kicking down there, probably. And I just started to slowly, immensely miss the three of them (my mother and the 2 siblings I have there) even though I haven’t meet both of the little fellas she is with. I kinda feel guilty for not being able to visit them through all these years, most especially after the big bang I had with my earnings a month and two back. My heart bleeds to ground the words of conscience and guilt, to realize that I have accommodated my will to attain pleasure, rather than entertain my family that is left behind in Cebu. And it really looks like Karma isn’t far away

Other relatives are adding more burden to my weary emotions by the heavy statements and judgements they left behind, I can’t do a thing but to consider everything they said but it’s still hard to accept these strong words that hurt as if my soul has been blown up by ten anti-matters.

I don’t know how I can escape the trap I’ve falling into. I wish I could revert a couple of things that I have done in life, but that is just despicable to talk about. What other alternative aside from praying for the good health of those I love could I reach out to? None.

For My Aunt who will surely come to read this post some day, some time.

You might have known and loved my mother longer than I do, but it doesn’t mean I’ve loved her any less. You might have showed how much you care or her in visible actions you’ve taken, but it doesn’t means that my prayer do not match your financial or other kind of support that you have given. Stop judging, to stop being judged.

The domain has been purchased and made use of a couple of year prior my use of it, I’m lucky to own it now, and I’ve never felt much more blessed to have a good domain like this under my belt but now. Poetic Notes seems to be the answer to the question: “Where can I blog about personal issues, without worrying about income”.

I never intended to earn from this website, nor will I ever have that as my prior concern as I will be talking about personal life in a more precise manner here. It will be a heck lot of fun sharing ideas with the new reader base I’m excited to meet, something beyond the earning niche, something very personal and inspiring.

I never thought that I would earn as much as 30,000 Pesos on a single go on the internet, nor have I thought that, that high status suddenly would vanish. Rest assure that whatever might happen from an earning standpoint, there will always be an avenue for refuge, always be this website that I can rely on to pour out my personal concerns, might they be violent, happy or any other feeling I wish to share.

Student Blogger is just not “doing the task anymore”, nor will Pinoy Teens be close to what I’ve assumed it to be, but this blog that has never really established itself in the international and heck, even the local blogging scenario. I’m looking forward now to write unforced content, and let my mind hit the keys instead my forced finger strokes to get the content online. I’m pleased to announce that the older blogger that pretty much everyone knew about is back on track, and that, with Poetic Notes.

Student Blogger changes Niche

The Student Blogger Blog will evolve closer towards its true essence of existence, it will become a blog sticking to the niche that it should be, about student who are blogging and earning money on the internet. Of course, there’s a Seo Wright that closes in to accomplishing the task of providing the latest gossips in the online world and SEO perspective, yet Student Blogger looks to suite its tasks the best, especially if the content is provided by someone in the shoes of an actual student who is trying as hard as he can to earn money in a dis-annoying manner.

The girl going by the name Tia has a decent problem with one of her crushes, or her only crush in this case who goes by the name Ryan and is her first love, even if they are not committed but are friends only. The guy has been acting close to her, kind, sweet, caring and all other characteristics that a boyfriend might show to her girlfriend. Even if to emphasize once more, that they are friends only.

The mind bugging question/s:

Does the guy love the girl? Or doesn’t? Is the letter sender really in love with the girl? What should the sender Tia do now?

It has somehow struck me, at some point, since I can relate to the situation she’s in and I just felt like picking up the phone and dialing the number to share my thoughts on air like I have plurked about moments before I went live. And the advice of mine is as follows:

It’s still her choice, if what she believes is easier. If she thinks that letting go and moving on is the right choice, then so be it, but she should carry the thought and have in mind that she might sooner or later regret it when she’ll she the guy who’s named Ryan with some other girl and even more regret the fact that she didn’t fight for her feelings. At the other hand, she could take the extra step and let the guy know that she loves him and that she wonders if he (Ryan) is feeling something that special in return for her, but she also have in mind that she might be rejected and that it might be pretty painful as well knowing that Ryan only sees her as a friend.

You don’t experience the beauty of love if you don’t experience pain, either way it might end up positive and negative but I personally would go ahead and ask that person and confront that person and ask if that person is feeling something special too, it’s always the way that I would handle cases like this, because it would be a probably lesser but long term pain knowing that the love has just been there all the time, but you’ve never fought for it.

What would you do in Tia’s case? Let go or fight for what she feels?

It’s like  Pyramid

It’s like a pyramid where you are trying to reach the top and need to start at the very bottom to start building on the right foundation, should I say. Being friends is just the perfect beginning into a relationship and it’s there where you get to know your future partner better, rather than regreting having entered a relationship with someone that you barely know. Don’t let your emotions drive you beyond you can handle!

Don’t let your emotions lead you.

Okay fine, you can argue with me with this case that you should not let your emotions play around with you, at times it’s good at times it’s bad, very bad. Especially when it exceeds the limits of what you should handle or slips away from your comfort zone. You should always have that balance in emotional aspects and smart thinking when looking for a partner or considering a application from a guy, when you’re a girl.

Don’t believe in words.

Okay, let’s assume that you do believe someone and account his words as true, but don’t do that to often especially not when a lot is at stake, trusting someone by word may make you feel bad in deed sooner or later, and you’ll never no for how long you’ll grief about what you have mistakenly thought as correct and true.

Don’t ride along, but walk towards your goal.

If you are thinking that that particular person you’re committed to right now could be the last one that you’ll own in your life; don’t forget to take it slow. You might run into traffic anytime soon if you hastly exceed the limits that you surely know about. If you have managed to stay at the friends level for some time, why rush with things that do not suite your age or your status? It’s bad, it’s very bad.

This is soundly random, but just the two cents of someone, who has been broken and experienced being the left over, of some joyous pleasant guy’s need.

Our Guest Writer Prefers to remain unknown, under the codename Pinky.

I’m tired and too lazy to introduce myself over and over again across all of the websites that I possess, so the two best places to know more about me would be either on my Personal Website, or the about page where you find most information needed to get linked with me. You could also follow my time line on Plurk or add me as a friend if I am really that interesting (well, 700 other people say so, that’s why they are my fans :p)

Jokes aside, let’s go on with the real deal.

The Love Bug Blog is dedicated to everyone, something that you may have read on our about page already. It’s written for guys to help them out in getting girls, and to help girls in sorting things out with what they often call their boylets (boyfriends close friends or whatever).

I thought about coming up with a blog like this due to my experience and my never ending blabbering mouth that would like to share a lot of things to other people, especially in this more on sentimental aspect where I will try to help you with your love problems, be your shoulder when no one is around, and be your best friend during times that you need one. In a while I will be setting up a contact page so that it will be easier for you to share your problem/s with us, thus the whole reader community here. That’s just one of the otns of features that I have planned for this blog.

But for now, I’d like you to be bored with this first post of ours, while I’m still brain storming for the upcoming articles, have a nice day everyone!

I can’t figure how I should get along with these thousands of words on my mind right now, but let me slowly, bit by bit unfold the fury in me and get some piece of crap written down.

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It’s nothing new, that I get caught by love that very easy and that I fail to pursue my love for someone also pretty fast. Not that I’m not doing my part, but it’s simply that I am unlucky, always having drawn the shorter until this moment that I breathe. But I’m not the only one who feels this odd right now, for a matter of fact, there’s someone who feels worse and as worse as it could be.

Having experienced that cruel emotional step down of being lonely, alone, outrageous on the other party, I had to step up for a moment and aid my friend the best I could, but it looks like I slipped past my personal necessities and expectations again, and it’s seeding deeply into my mind beyond that rescue act which was my mainly aim.

To introduce her, like I have introduce the couple others in a turn of a year (I think I have posted about three girls here), she’s someone from across the seas again, but this time just the local waters tear us apart and that’s for a certain reason. Another challenge? Or a sign to let go of this before it even really started? For all I can say that I am glad that I was able to help her out, somehow.

She had a problem with her boyfriend and has been left off the mark. I never thought that I would engage myself into listening to problems like that, especially a problem of such insane kind. But I had to, not that I was obliged to do so, but because I was determined to get that pretty girl I met on plurk to smile. And I eventually did, not just once, not just twice or trice, but multiple times.

I labeled this post “I’ll be there for you”, because it’s the most certain and least thing that I could do for her now. It might not in physical means but in moral and emotional support as we journey through that hole she’s been buried in, and sooner or later may get out of it and say at last, we’ve made it.

The emphasize of the WE is plain and simple. As I will continue to help her out, although it’s painful to realize that whatever I try, whatever I’m doing to make her feel better, gossips about her recent are still included in the context of our topics. It’s not that I am jealous (or maybe I probably am), but it’s because I want her to get over the bump and start something new. At least find someone else out there while I’ll stay on hanging as a good friend. Or could there be just this little glimpse of hope and special feelings make it through, and continue to grow?

Ayaw ko magsalita ng patapos. Since it’s been just a day into my mission to make her happy every day, but it’s looking good, and it’s even looking better the way we treat each other. The kind endearing of TeDeebHurR (Teddy Bear) and the endless calls per second night that I have planned. I just can hope, and continue hoping that this will keep up, and that eventually this time I can happily say that I have made the right choice, at the wrong time.

Who would have thought that timely now, when I have been left on track as well, I would find someone new in an instant, or is it just someone who will guide me too? I cannot say for now but one thing is very certain for that girl who is eventually reading this right now.

That despite my ears are full of the gossips, and my heartfelt heavy feelings in regards to the problems keep hurling me up and down at times, I will strive and continue what I have started and that’s said in the words,

I’ll be there for you, TeDeebHurR

ps: I know I sound confusing, but (1) wala akong internet sa bahay, sira [ang malas mo! hehe] (2) paubus na oras ko sa cafe [sheet i forgot to write this kanina] (3) you’re bugging my mind right now [gising na kasi]