I just found this piece that she eventually dedicated to me back then around 2006-2007, which I really hope you’d come to enjoy.

“Huli Na”
Gawa ni: Izy Bautista

Bakit ngayo’y ako’y aalis?
Ngayon ikaw ay aking mahal na mahal…
Sadyang kay sama ng tadhana’t
Pagiibigan nati’y di nagtatagal…

Wala lang naman eh
Ikaw lang naman ang iniisip
Siguro tanging hanggang panaginip
Tayo’y magmamahalan
At duoy di mangiwan…

Huli na para ibalik
Ang init ng bawat halik
Nung tayo’y magkasama sa kwarto
At nakikinig sa mga awitin ng radio…

Kaybilis lumisan
Kaybilis sabihin
Na di mangiiwan
Ngunit tadhana lamang
Ang nakakaalam…

Subalit, duoy sa malayo
Parang maging ikaw parin
Ang tanging isip
Ang tibok ng puso…

Ba’t ayaw mangako na ako’y babalik?
Ba’t susuko sa unang halik?
Tanging ang panginoon lamang
Ang syang nakaalam…

Sana’y tigilan na ang pagiiyak
Sa isa huli kong yakap…
Magpapaalam na ako sayo…

Sana’y tayo’y magkita pa,
Sa ngayo’y, ito’y HULI NA…

The girl going by the name Tia has a decent problem with one of her crushes, or her only crush in this case who goes by the name Ryan and is her first love, even if they are not committed but are friends only. The guy has been acting close to her, kind, sweet, caring and all other characteristics that a boyfriend might show to her girlfriend. Even if to emphasize once more, that they are friends only.

The mind bugging question/s:

Does the guy love the girl? Or doesn’t? Is the letter sender really in love with the girl? What should the sender Tia do now?

It has somehow struck me, at some point, since I can relate to the situation she’s in and I just felt like picking up the phone and dialing the number to share my thoughts on air like I have plurked about moments before I went live. And the advice of mine is as follows:

It’s still her choice, if what she believes is easier. If she thinks that letting go and moving on is the right choice, then so be it, but she should carry the thought and have in mind that she might sooner or later regret it when she’ll she the guy who’s named Ryan with some other girl and even more regret the fact that she didn’t fight for her feelings. At the other hand, she could take the extra step and let the guy know that she loves him and that she wonders if he (Ryan) is feeling something that special in return for her, but she also have in mind that she might be rejected and that it might be pretty painful as well knowing that Ryan only sees her as a friend.

You don’t experience the beauty of love if you don’t experience pain, either way it might end up positive and negative but I personally would go ahead and ask that person and confront that person and ask if that person is feeling something special too, it’s always the way that I would handle cases like this, because it would be a probably lesser but long term pain knowing that the love has just been there all the time, but you’ve never fought for it.

What would you do in Tia’s case? Let go or fight for what she feels?

It’s like  Pyramid

It’s like a pyramid where you are trying to reach the top and need to start at the very bottom to start building on the right foundation, should I say. Being friends is just the perfect beginning into a relationship and it’s there where you get to know your future partner better, rather than regreting having entered a relationship with someone that you barely know. Don’t let your emotions drive you beyond you can handle!

Don’t let your emotions lead you.

Okay fine, you can argue with me with this case that you should not let your emotions play around with you, at times it’s good at times it’s bad, very bad. Especially when it exceeds the limits of what you should handle or slips away from your comfort zone. You should always have that balance in emotional aspects and smart thinking when looking for a partner or considering a application from a guy, when you’re a girl.

Don’t believe in words.

Okay, let’s assume that you do believe someone and account his words as true, but don’t do that to often especially not when a lot is at stake, trusting someone by word may make you feel bad in deed sooner or later, and you’ll never no for how long you’ll grief about what you have mistakenly thought as correct and true.

Don’t ride along, but walk towards your goal.

If you are thinking that that particular person you’re committed to right now could be the last one that you’ll own in your life; don’t forget to take it slow. You might run into traffic anytime soon if you hastly exceed the limits that you surely know about. If you have managed to stay at the friends level for some time, why rush with things that do not suite your age or your status? It’s bad, it’s very bad.

This is soundly random, but just the two cents of someone, who has been broken and experienced being the left over, of some joyous pleasant guy’s need.

Our Guest Writer Prefers to remain unknown, under the codename Pinky.

I can’t figure how I should get along with these thousands of words on my mind right now, but let me slowly, bit by bit unfold the fury in me and get some piece of crap written down.

Read more at Pinoy Teens

It’s nothing new, that I get caught by love that very easy and that I fail to pursue my love for someone also pretty fast. Not that I’m not doing my part, but it’s simply that I am unlucky, always having drawn the shorter until this moment that I breathe. But I’m not the only one who feels this odd right now, for a matter of fact, there’s someone who feels worse and as worse as it could be.

Having experienced that cruel emotional step down of being lonely, alone, outrageous on the other party, I had to step up for a moment and aid my friend the best I could, but it looks like I slipped past my personal necessities and expectations again, and it’s seeding deeply into my mind beyond that rescue act which was my mainly aim.

To introduce her, like I have introduce the couple others in a turn of a year (I think I have posted about three girls here), she’s someone from across the seas again, but this time just the local waters tear us apart and that’s for a certain reason. Another challenge? Or a sign to let go of this before it even really started? For all I can say that I am glad that I was able to help her out, somehow.

She had a problem with her boyfriend and has been left off the mark. I never thought that I would engage myself into listening to problems like that, especially a problem of such insane kind. But I had to, not that I was obliged to do so, but because I was determined to get that pretty girl I met on plurk to smile. And I eventually did, not just once, not just twice or trice, but multiple times.

I labeled this post “I’ll be there for you”, because it’s the most certain and least thing that I could do for her now. It might not in physical means but in moral and emotional support as we journey through that hole she’s been buried in, and sooner or later may get out of it and say at last, we’ve made it.

The emphasize of the WE is plain and simple. As I will continue to help her out, although it’s painful to realize that whatever I try, whatever I’m doing to make her feel better, gossips about her recent are still included in the context of our topics. It’s not that I am jealous (or maybe I probably am), but it’s because I want her to get over the bump and start something new. At least find someone else out there while I’ll stay on hanging as a good friend. Or could there be just this little glimpse of hope and special feelings make it through, and continue to grow?

Ayaw ko magsalita ng patapos. Since it’s been just a day into my mission to make her happy every day, but it’s looking good, and it’s even looking better the way we treat each other. The kind endearing of TeDeebHurR (Teddy Bear) and the endless calls per second night that I have planned. I just can hope, and continue hoping that this will keep up, and that eventually this time I can happily say that I have made the right choice, at the wrong time.

Who would have thought that timely now, when I have been left on track as well, I would find someone new in an instant, or is it just someone who will guide me too? I cannot say for now but one thing is very certain for that girl who is eventually reading this right now.

That despite my ears are full of the gossips, and my heartfelt heavy feelings in regards to the problems keep hurling me up and down at times, I will strive and continue what I have started and that’s said in the words,

I’ll be there for you, TeDeebHurR

ps: I know I sound confusing, but (1) wala akong internet sa bahay, sira [ang malas mo! hehe] (2) paubus na oras ko sa cafe [sheet i forgot to write this kanina] (3) you’re bugging my mind right now [gising na kasi]

I may not have updated for some time, but I doesn’t mean that this blog is running down the river, I’ll post as often as I can something like this what is on my mind this very moment as I am writing.

The following poem talks about love, just like all of these poems here do, or should I say most of them? It talks about love from a heart, a lone heart that is loning for some love and.. just read on to find out.

The Lone Valentine
By: Kevin Paquet
I remember, I was at my room
Lying in my bed and thinking…
I was looking up the sky, the moon,
Wishing that the sun would be shining…

Not in real but in my heart,
not so warm but warm enough…
To fill this empty space in me,
and make me feel not this lonely…

How could I end up this very way,
with no one near close to a mile,
I wish to fade this very day,
until there’s someone to make me smile…

I long so long for some love
this day of valentines
I long for a something that I once had
The love of you and mine…

Yet everything is gone right now,
and I am left with a broken soul,
but I know that I must somehow,
look out and move on after all…

But wait and see, as I will be updating this blog with poems speaking from a happy heart’s point of view. I broke up with my long distance relationship, Daizel Cortez aka Badits just a few weeks ago, it wasn’t really official, but apparently it is now. And I cannot and won’t take back whatever I have thrown away.

I could name a lot of girls that have become special in my whole time spend on earth and it could need endless ours as each unique person that I have met has her own story to tell on how she has contributed to help me become what I am. May I be not that nice for some, I am still a “someone” to other people. We can’t please everyone, they say.

But I’m not here right now to talk about what my pasts have used to be, but to discuss the future that this blog and I am heading to. As like I have said above. You can await more poems, more nice poetic notes coming from me and maybe a few in depth insights from me and other guest writers that I will be inviting to share their respective insights about certain topics that I will tackle here.

The old class that this blog once possessed may not be totally brought back at once, but I will do my part to keep this blog rolling to be one very nice and representable blog, as I definitely don’t want to have yet another dummy blog going to my account.

With this, this will be the third and last project that I will be looking forward to for the first half of 2009. I will keep my fingers on my personal blog and of course on Pinoy Teens Online that is currently not really soaring high, as a PR4 website.

And by the way for the curious ones, I have just upgraded this blog to WordPress 2.7, I suggest you’ll go ahead and do the same as well. Even if I’m totally in love with the font that WordPress 2.6.5 > is using when writing a post,I won’t let my self be left behind by the sneak features 2.7 brings.

I hope that there are still a few people who are subscribed to this blog of mine. I won’t keep you hanging guys

The poem is quite long, and doesn’t sound as good as my other creations, but still, I find it good enough that I can share it to all of you. I badly need something new here, else this poetry website of mine will die out.

Here’s the first stanza of the poem:

Just can’t understand your ways,
why you kept me hanging these days,
my heart is so broken,
and it’s thorn up from inside…

Read the whole poem at Teen Philippines

Although, I have to admit, there have been a couple of unpleasant events that bumped our way, in fact, we could have been together for a year and 10 months now, but I totally messed up. I cheated on her.

Which is luckily not the case anymore this time, since she has given me this second chance. A lot of my friends don’t come to believe that I am able to hold on to our relationship for this long and even longer as we are getting stronger everyday. Even I wonder what made us stick together so tight, in spite the miles of water that part the both of us.

I have met her in Manila a couple of weeks ago when I attended WordCamp Philippines at Saint Benilde, and I tell you, it’s a totally different feeling being accompanied by the one that you love. Especially if you are into a long distance relationship and fairly meet that often in a year. (It was the first time that we met).

I know, I lost track of what I was supposedly to come up here with this post. But heck, let me give a shout to the world that love is just so perplexing and very complicated to deal with. It comes when you expect it the least and you start to have this awful tense feeling that your girlfriend/boyfriend would fool you at that particular time when you can eventually say that you love him/her the most. But, don’t mind that feeling. Ignore it.

It could be just a little test for you to come over and who knows, whenever you come to pass the trial of temptation and faith, both of you lovers may end up as a real couple. Which I hope will be the case between me and my girlfriend. It may have been just a single time that we have met.

But indeed, love is unexplainable. It’s unflagging success of delivering exciting moments to your life make it even more special. Haai.. I’m in love, for days, for weeks and even for months into my girlfriend and none else. Could you believe that guys?

What could be reasons for a breakup? Education, just like I might have mentioned earlier? Or maybe the will of the parents which has happened to me once in a time already. It might also be due to the unfaithfulness of your partner, or of any other reason which I could enlist here with no ending.

But I’d like to ask one question, prior breaking up,  did you ever thought things through? Or didn’t you? I mean, are you sure that you are ready to say goodbye and can you stand those strong words? (sa tagalog pa: kaya mo bang paninindigan?) Because if you can’t, then just do not breakup, it would just end up in a sea of tears for both parties.

You must come to the understanding that when you breakup with someone, it shouldn’t be your mind itself that doesn’t wants to continue anymore, but your heart and yourself as well, and so vice versa. Breaking up with someone you’ve been with for quiet some time and have shared quiet happy moments is not as easy as it seems to be and as it is said. It takes some time to get over a person, and often, you come to realize that you just cannot get over him or her. Goodbye’s not forever, many people say; then why do you need to say goodbye at all?

I don’t see the point in that. Don’t leave your lover if you can’t live without them. And always be considerate enough to understand the point of view of other people, not only the view of yourself. It’ll definitely lead to nowhere if you will be selfish. Love is not about just taking and taking, but about giving and sacrificing. I’m not saying that you should sacrifice yourself neither your education for your partner, but a little emotionally face down is always healthy and avoids you of being too spoiled.

Break up, if you know that you can hold on to your words, but never do so, if you think that goodbye’s are not forever, because just then, you may not see your lover anymore, again..